I love you not because of how many A you get, I love you because of you, yourself Will do my best yo!

Awesome people are meant to be together. Blues, my heart, my soul.

15/09/2012

Let's blog! Actually wanna blog since few days ago but laziness and emotional kill. So gonna update now because blog is too dead! What I did in this few days was made people cry! I know my fault for starting that topic but that is just how I feel duhhh :( I just made that topic a little earlier seems that day will come soon. No one wants to leave but the fact is we have to. Kinda sad but can't do anything. Appreciate the time we spend together, laugh play crazy eat chat gossip and so on..everything will become memories very soon. Memories are sweet and the thing that will touch our heart all the time. Everywhere with our footsteps, our voices, our laughter, our dances, our memories. Got to know many people and many things in this very short 5 years, 5 years sounds long but its like few months or few days? Good times and bad we go through together, stand side by side like a big family. Even though we cried, but things still go back to normal after tears. Became a BIG girl in this very short time, know how to understand people, know when is the time to shut up, know many things that made who I am today. Happy and sad moments, went through a lot. Missing those moments even sad moments because that is a part of my colorful life. Glad to know everyone that brings happiness and sadness to me! Love all of you The things that I appreciated in this few years : 1. My kinda good life 2. My school life 3. My friends that always stay with me no matter what 4. My panda 5. My classmates : Even some people are annoying but still my friends! *good heart* 6. My time that spent with everyone I love 7. My new family : The BLUES' 8. My freaking nice events with awesome people 9. My very first time helping for a school event : Paid for RM30 YEAHOO 10. My very first time working : Paid for RM100 but used up for LEEHOM's concert 11. My EXTREMELY first time went concert with the bitch, WE SAW LEEHOM WITH OUR EYES 12. My birthdays with friends 13. My "fuck you" that always come out from my mouth anytime, anywhere 14. My daddy, brothers and sisters 15. My hang out days with human 16. My tears for people that I love 17. My jokes that made many people laugh 18. My sakai dances in the class that made everyone stares at me. I'm AWESOME 19. My teachers, sometimes don't like them but some of them bring laughter so I like 20. My everything everything everything everything everything MOST IMPORTANT is : MY SUPERB FAMILY! Promised to study hard for SPM, hope I can do that OMG I don't wanna buy the freaking expensive GODIVA chocolates duhh. HAHAHAHA RM206 for 16 chocolates, aim for that!! At first very persistent to get straight A's for SPM but what I got is STRESS So now didn't really think much, just gonna do my very BEST in the exam. For those As, ********** YOU CHOOSE TO GIVE ME HOW MANY YOU LIKE LA SEEMS THE GRADE SOMETIMES HIGH SOMETIMES LOW. WTF BLUES' , thanks everyone in this family. Without all of you I wouldn't be like this, like a pervert! Great gossip topics, girls' topic, gay videos and so on. Made me like a NOT SUCI girl in few months. THANK YOU humans People that I treasure, not a long time but not short too, feel so good because have you all here with me. Live like a sakai is my style, so don't feel funny when you see me jumping around :D Gangnam style in the class is my love, shout at everyone is my hobby, quarrel with people is my job, touch people without permission is my HAHAHA But very soon this things wouldn't happen around in the school anymore, gonna miss everything. SWEETEST thing in the world! Last but not least, SUPER love my Form3 life, ate in the class with teacher during PSK class. NICE! Seems like many awesome time will just happen in the school, because we don't need to care of our image. HAHAHA Conclusion for the post : APPRECIATE EVERYTHING WHEN WE HAVE THE TIME, DON'T REGRET IF YOU DON'T SPEND YOUR TIME WITH YOUR FRIENDS NICELY BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T HAVE THE CHANCE TO BE SO CRAZY IN THE SCHOOL. YOLO

24/8/2012

Always wonder why holidays will create lots of problems. Friends didn't talk much, PROBLEM! Didn't see each other, PROBLEM! Wanna study but actually didn't do anything, PROBLEM! Why must we have problematic holidays?! Not anyone's fault but holidays' fault?! I think so. Learn to forgive and forget! :)

Selamat Hari Raya! Thanks for the one week holiday..extremely boring x.x  Plan to study but end up watching tv everyday -.- tiger cubs damn NICE. God damn I can't stay at home for one whole week! So people plan to go to bookfest at don't know where. Heck yeah I'm happy because finally have reason not to stay at home! Okay idiot books can't you love me even I don't love you?! Television can you hate me even I love you much??!! I gonna fail exam if continue like this!!!!! Lifeless holiday

Seems like long time didn't post up my feelings here. So lets make this post a little emotional!
Okay..why I always make a person cry?! Or hate me and dislike me. Or simply wanna quarrel with people. Just in case anytime anyone will forget me. Will remember me when they cry and quarrel..a bit crazy I know but this is how I think. Don't want to be like last time so I wouldn't be hurt again. Kind of stupid but this is the only way.
I know I am not as good as last time, or I am not a good friend. A stubborn human! I know wtf is jealous. I am just a normal girl, not superwoman.
I say nevermind doesn't mean that I really don't mind...hmm

26/7/2012

Thanks everyone that wished me,appreciated! <3

Even life doesn't treat you good, you must smile! All the time =) Shake my head like no body is looking at school, my hair get messy like crazy. HAHAHA..my style! <3

Sidang Bicara

A day that don't need to study! Wait for dad to come till 10+am Teacher told my dad that I'm a good girl. I know right! HAHAHA..and she said my dad is a lucky man because I smile always! =)

30/6 Study day

Went Subway, the so called study! HAHAHA...the songs played there stopped me from studying and start to sing. But at last I studied a bit and called brother to fetch me back home! Done of that day!

30/6/2012

Went school in the morning for co-curriculum activity. *Planned to run away from that and I did it* Reached school at 8.15am, walked in...OMG. Everyone was marching! Better get myself away from that or else teacher will call me there. HAHAHA...8.30am they finished and entered the hall. Gave my name and ran to back stage with friends [Practice their drama] Then 11am! The time to go study with the humans!

Teacher sit likeaboss!

Had a bad face day. Looked so weird

Everything is changing, including people. No one will remain the same forever, no one will stay there and wait for you to come. You have to run and chase the people around you to be the same as them. Trying to be a good runner, keep running and running until forgot who I am. Any day when I look in the mirror, I ask : Who are you? Heart is getting smaller,need to blow it up....... Am I bad or scary? I don't know.

EMO?!

Friends around me always being very emotional nowadays, WHAT CAN I DO? Don't emo, don't cry, don't sad, don't like that la and anything else can I say?! Or ask?! Was wondering what thing can make everyone being emotional at the same time, you emo and I also emo. Sorry if I can't do anything to help anyone, try to ask but can't do anything. I'm just wanna go far away from the emotional world and I'm now half way to it. EMOTIONAL is totally not a good thing and wasting time. Last time always emo for nothing, I felt so funny for that, now I emo when something happened but not everything that happened will make me emo. I felt really good now! Maybe people will say I am cold-blooded but who cares, I love my life now! I wanna make it better and to the best! People around me, stop being emotional! 1st, I can't help. 2nd, I don't know what to do. 3rd, I really don't like.

PIUS the best!

My rumah sukan got first place this year. PIUS, the yellow <3 Mum said that I didn't go that's why my rumah sukan can get Number 1. This is quite trueeeeee. For the last 4 years, I went latihan, sukan tara and some years I went sport day. This year, I ran away from everything and now got Number 1. I should chao if got any competition in sports. WOW

Pitiful posts

Ketua Tingkatan or Penolong Ketua Tingkatan is really NOT A GOOD post. When teachers have anything to complain, they will find you. Class too noisy, your fault! Class is dirty, your fault! Teachers didn't off the lights and fans before they went out, your fault! Give the attendance a little bit late, your fault! Any shit goes wrong, your fault! God bless us, my lovely ketua and me! *** Keep singing is the class with few blues -Jet lag [Simple Plan] -Payphone [Maroon 5] -Eyes Open [Taylor Swift] Changed some songs' lyrics to dirty thing. Of course not I did that! Those songs became better after changing the lyrics. We rock!! HAHA

For the one that quite important to me, the one that I treasure a lot. Thanks for telling me everything! =) Really felt sad and hurt when I knew that, but its okay. Time will cure everything! Gonna keep you somewhere in my heart. Don't worry and don't need to feel bad, I'm still good, now and forever! =) I won't lose you because you gonna be my special friend! HAHAHA. Promised I will study hard. After that we go eat sushi!! :) Life is good, don't worry.

Conclusion of the week: TERRIBLE HORRIBLE VEGETABLE Dafuq. Keep get scolding from teachers even didn't do anything wrong. HELLO! I'm innocent okay?!! Students finished their project on time and hand in to you but wtf you said we lepaskan batuk di tangga?!! We know that we are not as smart as you but you don't need to show how smart you are in front of us like you are a superwoman! DAMN! F word is perfect enough for this week. Oh ya, mentor asked me to see her on Thursday but I had tuition after school. Try to see her during recess but she was teaching, and I didn't went to school on Friday. So, SORRY teacher! I will see you soon. *Don't scold me or else my another week will spoil* THANK YOU. HUHHHH

WTH!

MY EYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( Now that thing already burst but my eye still bengkak. ArGHHHHHH

9/6/2012

Went Chatime with Mr. Tang after tuition to pass him his BIRTHDAY PRESENT. Before that went Gam Lin Kei because he DIDN'T EAT! Normally won't go there because expensive?!!!? D: Then Chatime! Mini violin! =) A beauuuuuutiful day! Hoho

MIDNIGHT!

The time is 3.18am now..I'm still awake :( Why am I so energetic in this midnight. Let talk bout my home works that NOT done at all. Sivik & Moral folio, I'm gonna wait until school reopen only finish them. ADDMATHS! Why everyone are posting other states project work?!! If wanted to post please don't only post popcorn! WHERE IS THE HAND PHONES PROJECT ANSWER!!!?!! Must be fair to others what :( So please post everything. Sharing is caring! I WILL APPRECIATE A LOTTTTTTTTTTTT IF ANYONE POST HAND PHONES PROJECT ANSWER. *finger-crossed* Why holidays end so fast?!! D: I feel like this holidays just started few days ago. TIME! Why you run so fast! Slow down a little bit and everyone will feel happy! I'm dying x.x

My cool brother! Mum said he is handsome, did he?? OMG

First week of holidays was fulled. Tuition,extra class,cs events. Home works haven't finish,projects are killing me! Felt damn tired of this week, I think I have to REST more.

4STARS!

Reached HGH Convention Center at 8.00am. Just few people were standing there, am I too early??Theng said 8.30am start register and so on but waited till 9.30am. Time past fast so never mind but the sun!! HOTTTTTTT!! Finally entered, said free seating but they already arranged the seats :( But still can see the stage. Lucky :D Performances started and the song they sang quite gam dong(I mean the song,not when they sang it out..haha) and the SJI's sketch not bad, quite funny. Laughed a lot! Dance also not bad~ The magic show....was....quite...boring...... Lastly there was a game for us to guess the name of the song. Sang by an Indian(from Africa) and a Malay(from Thailand) SAWADIKAP! Seriously didn't understand what they were singing..but can guess the song's name. Haha..enjoyed this part!! Ended with joy and fun, filled my day with happiness! <3

S II :D

My brother's S II was back from swimming so I just took it and used (WITH HIS PERMISSION) What a good brother!! :D Got front camera then what can do? Snap pictures!!

Try to act cute and I know I'm not cute. HAHA..just leave it! Who cares

9schools 26/5/2012

NO comment on this event -.- just no comment I only started to enjoy after this event finished. Sounded sarcastic but this was real

LONG lost

I'm back to blogger after a long lost! Some technical problems made me can't update my blog for so long, and of course because of exam too. Exam sucks! Gonna start my blog again with pictures! :)

Who said I can't cook?! Look at this and you will know. Wakaka

ONLY IN MALAYSIA!

Who is my mentor??

Principal gave talk to those students who might get straight A's for SPM. Stress begin after that. Oh my Buddha, how to get straight A's?!! One hour=RM126! I WANT IT!!!!! Each teacher will be mentor and take two students to make them improve. Which teacher will be my mentor? I want a nice nice nice teacher please :( A teacher that can teach me everything! Ahhhhh...please please! Finger crossed! Made teacher cried today..cried with teacher. First time feel so hurt :'(

Generasi X, Generasi Y.

Generasi X - Don't depends on technology too much, good manners and everything that are good Generasi Y - No tech no life! Anything that are bad! - From a human- Asked us whether we are Gen.X or Gen.Y?! Told us that ehem is Gen.X and tried to made the whole class like Gen.Y Dafuq are you talking? Please do research before you talk. LAME! SARCASTIC! YOU SARCASTIC! You nonsense! You are nothing!! Don't make jokes that are not funny because they are not funny at all but lame! Don't mess with us or else we will really complain you! Get off!!

Eh! Mihun!

Eh! Free mihun, take one! Take another one..take la! If not they will take it back. Stole mihun from canteen, actually not stole..we just take in front of other people. Power of seniors?! Many people look at us but who cares?! Dare you to report and you will know what will happen! WAKAKA. Do not play with seniors. Especially The Blue's Family! :)

Tick my name!!

Latihan rumah sukan?! Teacher called out my name last Friday morning because I didn't go for latihan for 2 times. Actually is 3 times but I asked friend to tick my attendance. *feeling smart* Second time didn't go to school so skip it. Third time just walk out from the school like I don't know anything. HAHAHA Promised teacher I will go for the next latihan rumah sukan, MUST do what we promised, so I went. Of course I won't stay there for sooooo long! Under the hot sun will make me crazy! Smart people use brain, think hard, how can I run away?! Went to field, this place shouldn't called as field because the sand is more than grass! It sucks! Teachers and 4 students were standing at school gate to stop people who try to run away. They looked like guards. So can't run away at that time. Went back to "field" and asked my friend to tick my name. Jump here and there, walk around to show people HEY,I CAME FOR LATIHAN!!! Walk in front of teachers and went to check whether teachers still there or not. NOT THERE ANYMORE! So I just sat in front of the office with Yivonn and wait other friends to come,they shouldn't change their shirt!! After that they warm up and start to run around the school, got shock and run in a class and sit. Scared people can see me and I hide behind a tiang. MY SCHOOL GOT MANY TIANGSSSS. Good place to hide! After all of them run to canteen, no one was there and I ran to office again and find for my friends. Pura and Jun ran out from the school when all of them were running. Then I ran out with Theng and Yivonn like there was a tiger behind us. CONGRATULATION! WE WERE OUT OF THE SCHOOL! HAHAHAHA...big clap for smart people *peace*

Brother came back from Labuan suddenly. WOW! Not really shock actually..get used to it thats why no feeling. Haha Good brother will sayang the sister a lot! Bought me chocolates again :D Wondering how long I need to finish those chocolates. Very fast I think?! Hmmm..I'm happy and I know it! Wakaka Went for Chemistry replacement class on Monday. 4.50pm start but reach there at 2.30pm! Bought present for singing competition. Yeah! Face looked blur and teacher thought I don't understand and don't know how to do the exercise. I'm CLEAR la! Life like this! Ahhhhh...tuition!

HEY! I'm WINKING!

The FEMALE! :D

The BuuBuu!

Monday! Nothing special. Tuesday! Nothing special!
Wednesday! Went tuition BUT Maths class canceled! Paid my fees ate my bread and went to OldTown with theng. LAUGH LIKE NO ONE WAS THERE. So?! We enjoyed! Wakaka
Oh before that, had girls' talk with the female in the class. CENSORED

THURSDAY! Physics! Mr.Tan did a "buubuu" demo for us. something about Class till 6.20pm, waited for the bus for more than half an hour. Reached home at 8++pm. TIRED. Dinner bath tv and slept! This is my life. Sad case

Friday! Good Friday. Should have holiday but teacher took our time! :( Physics extra class 8.30am till 12.30pm with 30 minutes break. LUCKILY! If not I think many people will faint in the lab. Reached school at 7++am and I helped teacher to feed the cats. OH GOD! She talked to the cats. "Ah Ma is going to the market now." Washed my hands 2 times because that is oily!!!! Class started and so on.....played with balloon. Actually just wash all the balloons -.- then 12.30pm! Planned to do something CENSORED. We did it? Haha..can't really imagine that. OMG
Conclusion of the day [I'm really an innocent girl!]
Took a lot of photos! :D Will post out the photos when I got them

Conclusion of the week : FUNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!

Hey you!

Hey you! Who you think you are? Princess huh? Don't dream. Don't try to gila kuasa because you got nothing to gila. Think before you talk, I mean you are not brainless?! Even this will be last year in school but don't try to mess up with other people,just shut your mouth when you have to, who cares? So you think you are good enough to say people like that? You are just the same like what you talk about other people, don't irritate people with your face or whatever, it looks sucks. THINK BEFORE YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH, DON'T TALK S**T
-.-

GOT MY RM100!

Earned my very first RM100 in my life! WORKED SO HARD UNTIL 12++am! AHHHHH
Happy or not?! I'm satisfied. More money to come...I WANT TO BE A BILLIONAIRE!



Look at my hair, I tied the "cow horn" on my head but I'm not cow :D cow horn, created this for that hair style. YEAH!

Day by day

ONE WEEK! Tired week.
BUSY BUSY BUSY! Got a chance to rest at home because yesterday almost faint at bus stop, woman's problem! Luckily didn't faint or else I don't know what will happen. Told mum I don't want go to school today, request approved! So scary if I faint at roadside without anyone I know, ohhh...dangerous.

SPM 221 days more. JIA YOU!

Wished everyone the BEST BEST BEST in exams

23/3/2012

Tomorrow is a tiring day! :( School's merentas desa in the morning at Titiwangsa. Will be the last year for joining this, MUST enjoy myself even its NOT INTERESTING. Gonna help at checkpoint 8, the LAST and AHHHHH checkpoint because many people will faint there. Its okay if you want to faint but please not in front of me! I don't know what to do and will just look at you, maybe pour water on you to make you feel clear?! I'm dangerous. hahahaha. LETS ENJOY UNDER THE SUN

Tuition in the afternoon! Lovely tuition centre! But still feel tired after the activity. *SLAP*

Work at night! 5pm-12am??? RM100. This is killing people! I know I have to stand there and do my work but I don't know what work is that -.- At Times Square 14th floor, don't know which part but will find out that place -.- CRAZY

SPM 227 days more

"Someone Like You"

Watched this video from YouTube. Nicer than the original one for me.
Just simply awesome :)

17/3/2012

Filled my day with food today. A day with happiness! :D
Ate cake bought by mummy in the morning, went Kasturi for tuition after that, ate bread. After that went secret recipe[treat by my LOUSAI] Haha..asked mummy to tapau food for me last night, reached home and filled my stomach again, actually felt quite full but don't want to waste so ate it! That time was around 6pm, went grandma's house and had my dinner around 7.30pm. I'm getting fatter and fatter, face became chubby again D: After this won't eat so much anymore, I want a thin face!! :)

Chatted with Theng at secret recipe about our deep deep deep secret. Haha
Don't feel upset or anything on what you decided or regret[I know you didn't :)] Just like what teacher told us, don't let anything happen to affect ourself. This year was our BIG year. Think before you do anything, don't feel guilty or whatever. Make sure this won't affect your studies then everything will be alright :) Always here for you but sometimes no! Haha
"Don't couple with him! It's better if you stay the relationship with him like this." she said. If coupled with have more time to quarrel and so on. Scared any day he leave me alone, if this happen [touch wood!] I think I will change into a brand new person, a strange person?! Get used to his presence in my life now. Felt so blank when didn't talk to him. I can tahan maximum for 2 days if didn't talk to him. More than that I will moody. Haha..sometimes is quite scary when you get used to someone's presence. Will feel like " Ahhh..what should I do now?" Walk here and there, even many things to do but don't know where should start. Sit on sofa not more than 5 minutes and get up. Only thing can do is SLEEP! Sleep is the best choice to calm down my mind. TEEHEE

Jimui! Miss both of you! <3


Last year's picture, don't know when! haha

Exam finished, holidays started. Life getting busier, human become more difficult to understand. Many things are coming and yet many things gone.
Difficult to trust in you anymore, can't do anything to change you so I change myself, actually nothing to change because I'm still the same. Treat your friends better not using your mouth or promises but take action and show it out that you are a good friend to people. Do anything wrong don't need give any stupid reasons, just tell. People don't trust everything that come out from a human's mouth, so do I. Some people said don't trust your friends, they are liar! There are still some people that will trust their friends fully without any suspicion because they know their friends will not betray them. Don't give stupid reasons on what you did, you have to know what you did correct or wrong, you won't do it if that's wrong right. Do what you want to do and I will feel better if you treat people more sincere.

Sometimes people will say " Eh,your friends right?! Ask them for some ideas can?"
YOUR FRIENDS, my friends? Wonder why must people use YOUR FRIENDS to ask people to do something. The friends are not only mine but everyone's friends. YOUR FRIENDS sounds so sarcastic.
Wondering what can I do......
Who cares

3.3.2012

<3 LEEHOM.
MUSIC-MAN II concert. One word, NICE!
So near yet so far, saw him but can't go near to him. Will get the chance next time!
Many things happened and I quite enjoyed the concert?! Haha..who doesn't enjoy
Saw him for the first time with short distance, HANDSOME!
Cute and so on all can be put on him. Piano violin Er-hu, nothing can beat him down because he is the best! LOVE HIM! AKU CINTA PADA MU ! :D

My first week of exam, Friday now! Time past super fast,just like chasing a train.
buuubuuu... exam, I feel like I'm a genius because I didn't study and sit for exam. Repeated this sentence for many times until I felt boring! Haha..but never mind I will repeat this next week and the following week until exam finish!
I fight for SPM not intervensi, try to get good results but I think I can't -.-
So leave it...who cares! Don't act like you know everything,ask if you don't know!




ah june came my house after school,ordered pizza delivery,heavy rain
The pizza man sesat jalan and reached after 1 hour++..he still can smile at us! WOW
pity him..whole body wet. hahahaha
Next week, still exam. I can't wait for SPM to finish!!!

When the time comes

When the time comes, you will know who you are.
So who am I? Answer shouldn't from me or I can guess the answer by myself?
Important or not,I don't know. Useful or not,maybe I'm not at all?
Working hard, trying to be better in my life and everyone I knew.For me, for you, for everyone that are important to me.Learning how to be a better person,learning how to be good to everyone, learning how to mix myself in all the situations so I won't be the one who left out by people, try to make myself a little bit important in peoples' life.
Important or not or I'm a person that can left out by people easily, or should learn how to make myself invisible and disappear anytime I want.
Be a good person,better for everyone but will I get any benefits? maybe yes or not. Waiting and waiting..can I? Can you? Can everyone be good to me? Treat me nicely even you hate me,dislike me, want to kill me or you hope I will disappear.
For a few seconds I thought....but I got an answer that disappointed me.
Just a few seconds, I knew many things.

"The one that got away" made me damn emotional -.-

Saturday.

Saturday's life, TUISYEN!
Skipped last week's classes, felt so sorry. haha


Cupcakes from neighbour, looked nice. I'll eat it tomorrow!OH..today?!!


My breakfast with theng, quite full!

12.30am! Should I sleep?!! maybe maybe..no!

8th & 9th day

Went uncle's house at night then bla bla bla..
look down!